So Goodbye

I'm here to say goodbye.
After much thought, I've decided to leave this blog for the time being [don't know if I'll need it again in the future].
Reason being, I simply can't go to school, go to work, manage 2 blogs, a youtube channel, AND have a life outside of the internet. I've simply decided to cut back on this blog to give myself more breathing room =)
My personal blog will be updated more often because of this and I am happy.
It will be filled with personal AND beauty related things as well.
So sorry for jumping back and forth with ideas, I hate yet love trying out new things like this.
You never know what possibilies lie ahead.
The posts that I do on here will be found on my personal blog so do follow!

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Goodbye and see you on the other side!

Weight Loss Message To All Girls [& Guys] read read read!

Post taken from my personal blog. I wrote this in April 2011. I still stand by it today which is why I'm reposting it here on my beauty blog!

I've had the biggest realization the other day and I was like "damn".....so I want to put this on my blog for everyone to read, maybe it'll help some of you and save you some time.

As a lot of people know, I was on the quest to get my IDEAL body. I was really close to it, a half inch away on various body parts from MY idea of my perfect body. I don't know if I've reached that goal or not yet, since I haven't gotten the chance to measure myself this month but I don't really care anymore.

I've worked my ass off, always watching what I ate, exercising like crazy, doing toning sets when I didn't feel like it, always ALWAYS thinking about my body image. Let me put this out there first; it does pay off. I'm really proud of what I've done and can see the difference from before.

But now my chest & butt got smaller from the weight loss and guess what? I was still not satisfied. To get it all back guess what I have to do? Gain weight. So I was thinking to myself, "after all that hard work for the past few months, I'm just going to have to gain weight again?" HELL NO. Because then I'd be back at square 1, wanting my ideal look. *sigh* I think that no matter what, you're never going to reach your "perfect" body unless you accept that your body right now is beautiful. No body is perfect. Then you can go on to working on shaping and tweaking to enhance it. All of my family members keep telling me that I've gotten too skinny and that my butt got smaller, etc. In my mind I'm not as skinny as I want to be. I can still grab a bunch of fat from my stomach so how can I be too skinny? But fine, I don't have a personal trainer, and my life isn't dedicated to working out 24/7 so I will never look like some famous ppl in magazines. 

I'm not a photoshopped person, I'm real and I guess real people have fat. Which is perfectly fine. 

I was so upset over it one day that I asked myself, "am I happier now or was I happier back then when I was curvier?" "Be slightly chubbier with a butt/chest or slim & slightly flatter?" "FLAUNT MY CURVES OR BE HAPPY THAT I'M THIN??"

Honestly both come with their own happiness. But personally I think I was a tad, teeennnssy bit happier a few months ago. And I should've been happier. Why did I stress over it so much? Why, whenever people complimented that I have an awesome figure, didn't I listen? Instead, I took all of the comments on how big my arms were and how fat I was to heart and let it rule my mind. Now that I think about it, I've gotten 39845345x more compliments than insults. Even to this day, after people comment on how I lost weight, they still add in "but you were already perfect before". I feel pretty stupid, and probably wasted a lot of time & energy over it. I took my body for granted, shame on me. Now I wish for it back. You gain some you lose some.

Ask yourself, do I really want this? And really think about it. If the answer is yes, then go for it and work hard. If not, be happy!! 

Extreme weight gain and weight loss is very very unhealthy for you. I don't want to become like that, changing my mind all the time. You'll also get ugly stretch marks, which I already have =___= so annoying.

What's my plan now? Well, I'm just going to say that I've reached my "ideal" look. This is good enough. I've worked hard, and I like what I see. Now I'm going to do a bunch of different work outs to maybe get my butt back. =((( Still going to work out & stuff but not as psychotic as before.

All teenagers, mostly girls, get VERY hung up over body image and go through hell trying to figure out what they want & what to do with their bodies. That's why I wanted to share this with everyone. 

Just be glad you were born with every body part working effectively. Why always complain over fat calves when someone out there was born with none? 

Eat healthy, try to stay active, put in your all when you're working out and you'll look fine. I hope I always follow my own advice. When I feel fat & not happy I'm going to remember that I wrote a blog entry about this! No more internal battles, I AM BEAUTIFUL!

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How to find peace in yourself

Post taken from my personal blog.

Lately I've been on an internal roller coaster of emotions. Came out of nowhere O_o I'll be pissed off at the world sometimes and then really happy & grateful for everything. Of course at the end of every day I'm always thankful for my blessings and every thing that's happening in my life. But it's during the day that I don't like. I don't like that I get caught up with stress or worries or just little things that annoy me.

So, I've been trying to do more things that bring happiness to me so that my mind can be more at peace. My name does mean peace anyways. LOL.

Not trying to be extreme and go all ZEN, but I'd like to achieve a bit of that.

In this time in our lives, it's easy to become too busy to nurture your self let alone your mind.

Working out is hard as it is, I know. But being strong means more energy & happy endorphins!

In more simple words, God said not to be too involved with the world and its things.

That makes me think that I should be into nature which I'm not a big fan of.

I guess we should live life but still pay attention to the SIMPLE little things that bring happiness to us.

Do not neglect them or push them away because you have more important things to do.

A clear and peaceful mind means a happier outlook on life.

A happier outlook on life means good health and better decisions.

Being happy = good health.

Happiness is contagious.

I've gotten my boyfriend to believe that complaining is my favorite hobby but I am trying to do less of that and  find more ways to be optimistic!

I've compliled a list of ways to spend quality time to better yourself based on research & experience =)

- Find ways to express your thoughts & emotions. Paint, sing, dance, or write<3 

Bottled up emotions = negativity! [Can you tell I like my little equations? hehehe]

- Take care of your body. Take a relaxing bath, work out, do yoga, eat right, get a much needed massage.

- Surround yourself with people who encourage you. Be it with friends, coworkers, or college professors.

- Let go of all negativity. Pray, forgive, just let go. If someone's done you wrong, they will be punished. You don't need to lift a finger. I have to work on this one the most. Many things annoy me and I will learn to say OH WELL.

- You know what you want & like to do. So do it. I enjoy reading but have been "too busy" for it. I'm going to make more time. No surprise that I love self-help books lol. I also love to indulge myself in my favorite websites that take my mind away from my world.

- APPRECIATE LIFE. We take a lot of things for granted. Sometimes we are reminded, sometimes we aren't. Try to look at things from another point of view, life is so amazing O_O. Crazy scary things are happening in the world, every day is precious. Everyone's life is different so to each their own in figuring out how you will appreciate yours.

Be Happy =)